I will let you in on a little secret about me...I am a control freak! I am the oldest of five children and growing up I was the boss. When my parents left me to babysit at the age of 12, I was in charge, it was my way or the highway. You towed the line or else. When I said it was time to clean, you cleaned. My bedroom had to be neat and clean all the time and I just didn't abide with clutter, dirty laundry or dirty dishes left around. This caused many arguments between my sister and I since we shared a room and drove my mom crazy. I am sure my siblings were thrilled when I finally married and moved out. I am not proud of my controlling ways but it is who I am.
Being married was an entirely new experience for me and I went into it thinking that I could control everything about it. It made for a rough start and it took me years to finally realize that I can't control everything and best of all, I don't need to. There are times that I just need to let go. There are days that I still struggle with letting go but I am working on it. I have realized that not having to be in control all the time makes me happier. Yes, my house is still VERY organized but if the laundry doesn't get done or the dirty dishes are left in the dishwasher it is not the end of the world. I am just going to let it go and not stress about it.
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